I just haven't met you yet,

2009.. HAPPY NEW YEAR..

The year 2008 has left me with dozens & tonnes of bitter & sweet memories.

The year of an oxe(2009) has just begun. With much sorrow, i had to leave 2008 with a single life nw.

It is bcos the relationship had ended nearly a month ago (4.12.08). I would like to say that i would never want to turn the time back again as it seriously hurts me a lot.

2008 was the year that i experienced most of the hardships in my life. The various obstacles that i had to go through besides family, relationship,friends, education n others.

Regardless of all that i have suffered through and without me realising, god has given me that much patience that i needed in 2008.

God has changed me to be sumone better in life with many hopes & dreams.

With all the hardships, god has sent me an angel to guide me through the path where i am now.

I thank god for giving me the chance to live in 2009 and hope that 2009 was filled with lots of happiness.

To 'him', the scars at my left hand reminded me for who you are and the bitter memories in 2008.

Though the scars didnt hurt that much, what hurt the most was the inner soul of Nurul Natasha.

Though your actions are now memories, it will never be forgotten. For all i knoww, i had given you the love, care n concern, but it just wasnt enough for you till e day on 4.12.08.

This was an entry to voice out my heart.

It was a lie if i had to say that i have gotten over it..

but i have move on now and 'happily' leading a single life. I had a circle of friends that could just cheer me up and make me smile.

To 'him', this entry was meant for you.

Thank you for everything that you have given to me such as the dress, couple ring, necklace and it will be kept fo memory sake.

I would need you to forget me for your whole lifeand make it as if i have never exist in your life before.

Since thats wat you want, right?

I wouldnt know if i want to accept you as my fwen now bcos you didnt even treat me like one.

and thats wat i hate the most.

Im now thinkin that my existence are not needed anymore in your life.

Therefore, no worries cos i wont disturb u at all k. U can have all girls you want, but never treat them like how you have treated me okae.

But i'll still remember the good side of you. =)
Lastly, be happy with your life that u're leading now and be sure to take care of urself.. =)

p.s the gift that he bought on our 1 yr anniversary..